Dirty 30 or …?

This morning I woke up age thirty. Life and time go so fast. I had a hard time accepting this fact and had been dreading this day for about a month. In my eyes, I had not accomplished all that I thought I would have. I reflected on my life and realized I did not finish many things I had attempted.

It is easy to have a pity party. Even easier to sulk and stay in that place. Now I sit typing this and it is more apparent I am blessed. My sister and two nephews are once again in Washington and I get to be an influential part of their growth and development. I have parents who love and continue to support me in what I choose to do. My brother and sister are always there to talk to; be a listening ear as well as give me mostly logical advice. Haha. I also have a handful of great friends who have been with me through difficult times and great moments. I try not to take that for granted. I am still here. I have a voice. I have a purpose; reason for being here.

A couple of weeks ago my friend D. and I were giving a lesson to the teenagers at my church. After she shared the story of Nehemiah, I told them that no one was a mistake and that God put them here for a reason. That someones salvation depended on them being obedient to God. I think at that point I was reminding myself more than them.I did not want to celebrate, in my eyes, what was failure. D. said something that I needed to hear.She tends to do this without knowing. She said, “Back on October 31, 1986, God knew that someone in 2016 , would need to hear what she had to say.” It wasn’t many words but the timing was great. I almost wanted to shout and cry. I think we all have those times where we get discouraged. This time it just felt different. God reminded me that he hasn’t forgotten about me.

From this day forward I will be optimistic about my future and my 30’s.  Don’t know what it all entails but I actually excited.






A quick word…


Hope you can learn from my lesson!

School Daze

Last week I started college. The last time I attended a class was in 2008. Needless to say I had a little anxiety. If I didnt think about it, I was able to relax.

One of the most challenging hurdles I have had to work on is my mind; believimg that I can start and finish. This is my fourth attempt in attending college. I wont go into details right now but to sum it up, in 2009 I was tested and I found out I have a learning disability. Since then I have been hesitant in the whole college thing. All this time people have said that I was more intelligent than I thought. Others said I was too smart not to be in school. The thing that held me back? Fear. Fear of failure. Fear of repeating my past. I have to remind myself it is all in my mind. Whatsoever a man thinketh, so is he. If I believe I can do it, I can do it.

Stay tuned for uodates on my journey!

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Having a Moment

To some, death is a part of life. You’re born, live, then you’re gone. Every person has a specific time to leave Earth. Anytime a person I am close with passes, reflection takes place. I think about them. I think of past events; their characteristics. There are times I question God Thatdoes nothing. Sometimes He responds, “It was time”. That alone says a lot. And really, we aren’t priviledged to an rxplanation. To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord.
I have a hard time with death itself. Every day is another day to get myself together and my destination is Heaven. I know I’m not ready to die but really, who is? I fuess those who intentionally take their own life. But that’s another discussion all by itself. I am not readdy to leave. God has a plan for me and I have not fulfilled it. Once I do, what will happen? I guess that is what has me thinking. Will God want me up there? How will I die? For me, the scariest scenario is via sleep. No warning whatsoever.
Since February of this year I have been to four funerals. Two went to my church and passed in their sleep. Gotta get right church.

Almost Friday Humor


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You Just Be Yourself

Soooooooo. I was thinking about my day to day interaction with people. In having a conversation with a couple other individuals, I gave my five cents of contribution. Notice I didnt say two. ☺ it was a rather good, healthy dialect. I late thought about what I said and thought maybe I shouldnt have said what I said. I used to, and sometimes still do, have a hard time explaining my point of view. When I speak I want you to fully understand where Im coming from. Its not like my opinions were off topic or that I was yelling or talking over anyone. I felt the need to apologize for what I thought. When did I ever think it was ok to feel bad about how I truly felt? Im no longer going to feel sorry about my thoughts. I am firm believer in saying what you mean and meaning what you say. Be yourself and stand up for what you believe. This can hold true for any age. Please remember to be respectful, kind, open to others as well. There is a time and place for everything and it is also how you go about saying those things.

Have a wonderful day!

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Starting 2015 with a bang….or something like that

A couple of months ago I decided to draw a vision board. New Year’s resolutions have never really been my thing. I start out the new year with all this momentum and a month later I’m pooped out. No motivation whatsoever. I don’t want to follow through on things. I have come to realize if I want things to change, I have to create it. You can’t expect things to turn out differently if you’re unwilling to play your part to change. My vision board consists of four categories: spiritual, health, finances and career.
Spiritual growth is important to me because I want to grow in God. Reading my Bible and praying more is helping me with that. Also, going to church connects me His people. I’m not really a people person. I can totally keep to myself and that’s not neccessarily a good thing. How can I minister to individuals or groups if I isolate? Don’t get me wrong. There are moments where you need to be alone so God can speak and you listen. Then there are situations where you need to listen to God as He gives you instruction on what to say and how to say it.
My health has recently taken a turn for the better. Some events occured this past summer that made me take a look at my own life. I decided to eat more vegetables and fruits. I havent quite worked out consistently but I am getting back to it.
I decided too that if I want to one day own a house, I need to take the steps needed to do so. I’m paying off my deferred school loans and rebuilding my credit. Its so hard but I know it will be totally worth it.
My career is steady. I am currently a CNA and I am working part time in doing that. Still looking for another job that I can actually live on/off of. I think I’m almost there. Hopefully my job applications come through for me!
I’ve got a lot going on right now. Not complaining, just grateful for being to do the things I can. Until next time, take care.

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Not sure where to start so I will begin here…

   This past July my mother suffered a stroke. I couldnt believe it. A strong, caring, compassionate woman of God and who also loves God is being truly tested. At first I was upset. Not at God. But how this situation changed my mom. This once vivacious woman had been succumbed to a hospital bed. Her right side paralyzed. I was strong for a while and tried not to let her see me cry. That would make her upset and she too, would shed tears. I helped bathe her, get her dressed, gave medications, and cooked meals. It was hard for me seeing her like this. I could only imagine how she felt. She was actually in the situation. She was unable to move her limbs like she wanted. She was the one that was frustrated she couldnt do certain things. She has always been a busy person. I dont mean busy body but someone who gives their time, has an ear to hear, serving others, searching for ways to help someone else. I asked God why. I didnt get an immediate answer. Through the process of my mother getting progressively better, I have seen His hand on her life.
   Our trials and tribulations are not for ourselves. It is so that people may see Gods glory in the midst of it all and that they may know Jesus for who He is. This hasnt been the easiest predicament to be in but through it all I know God is in control. It is also a learning lesson for everyone we are connected to. I pray that people see my mom and know that God is real. This stroke could have easily taken her out but God didnt allow it. Its easy to complain and look at the negative but Im so thankful she is still here. Im treasuring the time I have with her.
   She is proof that God heals. And I am proof that He is a keeper. How can you say who/what God is to you unless youve been in a situation where you need him to be ________ (fill in the blank)?

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Go Fund Me!!

Hello everyone! I hope you all are well and in good health. I am well aware that it has been a while since I have written an actual blog. And now, I am asking for your participation. I can only imagine what you’re thinking right now….She hasn’t been writing anything and when she finally does, she wants something…..Yes, yes I am.

In January of this year a friend of mine and myself started a youtube channel titled The Heiress Life. You can find some videos here–>>www.youtube.com/theheiresslifevlog. Due to some circumstances we were not able to film videos and soon will not have the equipment needed to continue as planned. We are asking people to donate any amount they wish at www.gofundme.com/theheiresslife. Monies raised will go towards purchasing a camera, laptop and also software. This will further help us with our vision of how we see ourselves growing. We pray for the best and hope you will please support us in this endeavor. Please share this info and like us Facebook–>>www.facebook.com/theheiresslife. Thank you in advance.

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