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School Daze

Last week I started college. The last time I attended a class was in 2008. Needless to say I had a little anxiety. If I didnt think about it, I was able to relax.

One of the most challenging hurdles I have had to work on is my mind; believimg that I can start and finish. This is my fourth attempt in attending college. I wont go into details right now but to sum it up, in 2009 I was tested and I found out I have a learning disability. Since then I have been hesitant in the whole college thing. All this time people have said that I was more intelligent than I thought. Others said I was too smart not to be in school. The thing that held me back? Fear. Fear of failure. Fear of repeating my past. I have to remind myself it is all in my mind. Whatsoever a man thinketh, so is he. If I believe I can do it, I can do it.

Stay tuned for uodates on my journey!

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You Just Be Yourself

Soooooooo. I was thinking about my day to day interaction with people. In having a conversation with a couple other individuals, I gave my five cents of contribution. Notice I didnt say two. ☺ it was a rather good, healthy dialect. I late thought about what I said and thought maybe I shouldnt have said what I said. I used to, and sometimes still do, have a hard time explaining my point of view. When I speak I want you to fully understand where Im coming from. Its not like my opinions were off topic or that I was yelling or talking over anyone. I felt the need to apologize for what I thought. When did I ever think it was ok to feel bad about how I truly felt? Im no longer going to feel sorry about my thoughts. I am firm believer in saying what you mean and meaning what you say. Be yourself and stand up for what you believe. This can hold true for any age. Please remember to be respectful, kind, open to others as well. There is a time and place for everything and it is also how you go about saying those things.

Have a wonderful day!

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Think About It

     Sometimes I look at my life and wonder where I would be if I continued school. Pursuing journalism. Although exciting, I was not in love with the idea of having deadlines and writing about certain topics. I’m a free spirit. My mind wonders. There are times where I jump from one thing to the next. I don’t know a little about a lot of things but instead, I know a lot about a few things. All in all, God always know what He is doing. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason; not by incident or accident. A couple of years ago my Pastor told me that God wants to use me and that He has a great work for me to do. And for that, I would not need a college degree. At that point in life I didn’t have the greatest self-esteem. I had gotten kicked out of the same college twice only learning later I have a learning disability. I had doubted who I was and what I was actually able to do. I have to remind myself that God is my father and can help me. I also have to help myself. I think of faith as an action word. I have to put it to use. With that being said, fully put your trust in God. He knows what He is doing.

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One sentence at a time….


at the moment, I do not have any words to share.

I just thought I would write a lil somethin somethin to let you all know I am still alive and kickin.

I have been through a lot lately and do not know where to start.

I am sure when I feel like I have enough words, they will begin to flow.

Stay tuned!

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Early Morning…..4:50

I am up at 4 o’clock a.m. for no apparent reason. If this had happen any other time, I would have just prayed and then rolled over to fall asleep. Buuut not today.

I am frustrated and its interfering with my beauty rest. I have a friend whom I have known for quite some time and I am just tired of the way things have transpired. Although I may have not graduated college, I am still intelligent and that fact that someone has to constantly one-up me or correct me with their opinion ALL the time is starting to annoy me. I try not to let it get to me. Justifying the actual reason for my being upset isn’t working, Whenever I get upset, I either call people out or I choose not to address the situation. I am used to holding things inside but it’s getting to a point where I don’t want to do that anymore. If I’m unhappy and your words or actions made me feel that way, I want to be honest and tell you about it. I don’t want to let the little things bother me but it’s becoming bigger. If I don’t speak up, things will just get worse.

There are times I distance myself. Not to necessarily be rude. I just do not want to deal with confrontation. I need to grab the situation by the horns and speak on it instead of lashing out later because I bottled my feelings.  There is a time and place for everything. I suppose now is the time. Well, maybe later today. 🙂

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Hello, hello!


“I don’t wanna show it and right now I don’t even know what I’m saying.”

     I remember seeing Elle Varner on the BET’s Awards in 2010. Her set was a part of their Music Matters. While not an absolute fan of the song she sang, I love Only Wanna Give It to You with J. Cole. The song was reminiscent of the 90’s. I felt like I was in the wrong decade. I didn’t think it could get any better until I heard this unique blend of what sounds like a fiddle and a dope beat. I have been listening to her album for the past week. My other favs? Not Tonight, I Don’t Care and Oh What a Night.



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Free My Mind

Hello all!! I hope each and every one of you are having a great day!

A good friend of mine sent me this video literally 11 hours ago and I’d thought I would share it with you all.

This is really the tip of the iceberg, really. But I want you to see it for what it is. Take a look and comment. I will soon write a follow-up.



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Free My Mind


Happy Friday!! I hope you all are having a fantastic day. If not, I hope your day gets better. Each morning I am blessed to see, I make up in my mind of thinking the best. Everything may not be going alright but I CHOOSE to look at the brighter things in life. There is always someone worse off than you.

A lot of things have been going on in the news lately. Trayvon Martin, Geraldo Rivera and his Twitter account, Kony 2012, Obama and his healthcare plan….

Being a black man in America has never been a popular trend. Except, maybe as a trend on Twitter. Everyone wants to be black but not everyone wants to BE black. I am not going to go into depth with this topic but my heart and prayers go out to his family and friends. A young man is dead. No parent should have to bury their child.

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What iDig!

     Hello everyone! I hope you are having a wonderful wednesday! I know I have been slacking in this blog but it is for good reason lol. I was a vendor in my first holiday bazaar. It turned out ok. No disappointments from me. Although I kind of wish I was placed in a different area. Because this was the first year another gym was used to hold vendors, no one really knew about us except for a couple of signs that were inproperly placed in non-effective areas. All in all this was a great learning experience and I hope to do at least two more shows before the holiday season ends.

    Next big update……….I have screen t-shirts coming very, very soon! I can’t wait! I have been wanting to do this for a while and it’s about to happen for me. God is truly amazing. I am so grateful to be doing what I am doing.

     Don’t forget to ‘LIKE’ this blog and online store on facebook! Also, if you would like to receive e-mails to keep you updated please let me know! E-mail me at naturallygiftedsl@yahoo.com. Until friday, peace and love!


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Free My Mind

Happy friday everyone!! If you are like me I am so excited for the weekend. As of now I don’t have anything set in stone as to what I plan to do—except cleaning my house. Which leads me to the topic of the day: Cleaning house.

Right now I am not speaking about physically cleaning up your house but more like evaluating relationships and friendships. Ask yourself these questions. Are you happy with how things are going with your best friend? Do any of your close friends support you in your aspirations/dreams? Have they helped you when you faced difficult situations or are going through a hard time? Do they encourage you and wish you well?

Not everyone is perfect but there should be some kind of balance in any type of
relationship. It’s a reciprocated not one-sided. When I was younger I used to have one-way friendships. I realized that it really didn’t benefit me. It felt like they were hindering me from doing and achieving more. That’s a hard pill to swallow while in middle/high school. I cut ties with people because of their actions. Backstabbing seemed to be the name of the game and I wasn’t having it so I stayed mostly to myself. I could not grasp the fact of someone claiming to be your girl but then talking behind your back and telling secrets she promised she wouldn’t. That not only hurts but you learn to build walls because you don’t want to feel that way again. That can stall potential friends and possibly significant others from getting to know who you truly are. How are they supposed to get to know you if you don’t let them in?

Fast forward to today and I still have a handful of friends that I talk to daily. And I have known them for at least ten years each. Building trust is one of the most important factors in lasting friendships. Look at those you surround yourself with. Are you growing or stalling?



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